Ativan

by Alivia Garcia

My heart is heavy

The boulder sits and waits

      on my chest

Suffocating

I’m sinking

Do you know how it feels to drown…

      above water.

My palms drip

Losing grip

Fill your chest with air

Breathe in. Breathe out.

      my therapist tells me

Like a balloon

Inflate. Deflate.

I watch the flame

of the candle burn

Reaching out to the open blaze

It wavers

teasing me.

Give me

an Ativan.